Soul Discussions: April 2011

Thursday, April 28, 2011

How To Please A Man???!!!

I woke up and checked my to-do list

I looked at the clock located on my left wrist

Time was ticking more than I knew

what I did know what you were on my list to do

I placed your lipstick stained shirt in the washing machine

I had to make sure that your clothes were clean

I checked your pockets for paper money and dimes

I found a number that wasnt quite mine

Worried was I? Not in the least

I know that you, my man is a savage beast

Not able to be tamed or held down by one

I know you'll prefer many pussies than survive with just one

I then ventured to the kitchen to begin your dinner

I'm not your only Goddess but I am the only winner

My man, You are the Only one for me

It doesnt bother me too much that you've got room enough to flee

No time to sit still for you'll almost arrive

After cleaning the whole house I feel barely alive

I must however tend to your needs and leave mine for last

I only worry about present and future abandoning the past

I greet you with your shirt ironed and your dinner on a platter

How you fuck me tonite wont really matter

I just want you within me makin love to my soul

Even though you give me pieces I'll pretend your being is whole

I was taught how to love a man forgoing my own needs

I'll abandon my desire for happiness to bear your multiple seeds

I received a call from the doctor today and he said he needed to see me

I already know what the issue is...... I have contracted an illness due to your selfishness

You gave me HER, HER & HIS HIV

Saturday, April 23, 2011

Love Games

I loved you before I even saw your face

and the feelings intensified when I was in your embrace

See, the day you drove right to my door step

I was inside tryna figure out just what to wear and look cute for you

I musta changed my clothes one time or was it two

Didnt matter, I think I threw my hair in a ponytail and

kept it moving but I knew I shimmied my hot ass

so that you could analyze my curves

check out my hips

observe the fullness of my breasts

it was summer time and I wanted you to see all of me

without seeing ALL OF ME

even though my heart had been displayed on my sleeve

without even wearing one.

See I fell in love with your voice

your intellect

your body wasnt even apart of the equation

yet I already felt like one plus one equalled us two.

Now youre gone and its just me, myself and I

attempting to not feel the same for you

once more knowing that

all I wanna do is kiss you

love you

embrace you

taste you

be apart of your aura, your breathe, your spirit and soul

No longer being absent and partial, being with you will make us whole

1 plus 1 equals 2 but

I am nothing without YOU

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Hand Written

Collaboration By: Allison “Essence M” Edwards & Chris Styles

Allison

I remember the first night I realized you weren't next to me.

I had to get up and look for you.

I found you under my sheets,

placed you gingerly in my hand

and utilized you with what passion I had within me.

I loved and still do love how you feel in my hands.

Your gentle yet so rough edges brush my fingertips

and I get aroused knowing that something exciting

will form from our interaction.

I place my hand on top and feel how smooth you are.

I feel the intimate places where I've inked my signature upon your canvas.

Never once did I think I'd leave my mark on you

but I did and I have proving to all that you are mine and I am yours.

Pieces of me intertwine within your open spirit

leaving me breathless and in tears.

You accept me totally

flaws and all as I notice the sharp lines I've left.

There are no mistakes,

only new beginnings and with each passing day I fall deeper in love with you.

You are truly my muse and I breathe because of you.

Chris

I remember our first embrace

My fingers traced your back like,

A blind man trying to find his way

drawing mental pictures, imagining your features

from the curvatures of your face

See, I was..

..displaced in empty mental

Yet, we were still able to communicate

It was the flexibility of the conversations

That enabled me to truly be free

I could,

Spit that curb dialect without it being viewed

As hood rhetoric exposing the roots within me

And

For that I love you..

You listened to me when

my devotion switched lanes

chasing dreams in lace and high heels

raising concern about, what it is I really feel

allowing me to hit guard rails and fish tail

ok.. ok - I was out of control for real..

but

these stories were kept between the margins

I smudged the ink a little boosting the authenticity

Since shit is now dispensed via Tweets and other forms of Social Media

I still fucks with you

It doesn’t matter how you’re viewed

Be it in pixel format or on leaves of paper

You still birth my thoughts in the likeness of beautiful you

…Poetry

A soothing voice that lulls me during a bout of insomnia
I doze off but awaken feeling your heated breath near my cheek
Awaiting the moment your lips touch mine I peek through my eyelids
Are you what I'm waiting for?
I roll over and pull the comforter over my naked shoulder

pretending that I'm nestling in your imaginary arms

I can't sleep and I watch the clock
3:16am
I can't help but wonder when the next time will be.
How odd is it that this is the stage of our lives that we are at.
Watching time and waiting for what may or may not come

I've dozed off
I wake up
I smell your scent
The soft aroma of Chrome sends chills down my spine
You walk in and stare at me knowing what you want to do.
Simply put your arms around mine
Your lips sweet as wine
Our eyes intertwined
No longer watching time
Why?
Because it stands still when I'm with you
G'nite

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

FULL CIRCLE

To live is to learn
to learn is to earn
to earn is to gain
to gain is to have
to have is to hold
to hold is to mold
to mold is to create
to create is to evolve
to evolve is to change
to change is to grow
to grow is to learn
to learn is to live.

Give Me You

I stare into your grey eyes and realize that my heart is no longer smoky
I can see everything clearer now that I have got you
Laying in your arms is like a symphony of music
so calming, so spiritual, so warm, so kind
Never once did I know you would blow my mind
Aint no such thing as sex wit u
I cant even imagine sharing u
things I want I get wit u
I wanna entwine wit u.....
Baby give me all......
Give me YOU

In Limbo

Mr oh so right is oh so wrong

stop playing with my heart and taggin me along

I've loved you from day one just hid my feelings from you

If you ever knew my heart, I dont know what I'd do.

You've been there for me thru the worst and sometimes thru the best

Our relationship is strange but I think you can pass the test

I laugh you cry, you smile I sob

Hell being with you is truly a fulltime job

I'd love to be in her shoes for you've given me so much

its been a long time since Ive had your gentle touch

You've loved me very close you've loved me very far

You've loved me on the bed and in the passenger side of the car

What can I make of you? Time will only tell.

All I know is I miss your smile, your laughter and your smell

I lose sleep over you and wish you were mine

but I wait to have you, not now but next lifetime.......

I.........Dont.........Know

I dont know what to make of you.

The sweet sound of your voice.

I dont know what to make of you,

but then again do I have a choice?